Whoa! Let me just say that I have no idea where the time has gone. I’ve spent most of this year either building my base or working towards this BIG and SCARY goal I am about to tell you about. Even if there is no way to top last year’s Chicago Marathon experience, I plan to try my hardest.
For me running isn’t just about the numbers. While I love
obsessing over reviewing my splits and paces, I really just love to run. This year I needed to get back to that. I don’t think I was necessarily burnt out after last year’s cycle or the Walt Disney World Marathon, but I did announce I wasn’t running another marathon.
I had some struggles at the beginning of the year. I had some rough race experiences like Miami and Princess Half Weekend, so I got to work. I put my head down and started grinding with more focus and determination than ever.
Through building my base I had some high points, like Knoxville and the Tinkerbell Half Marathon. It wasn’t always rainbows though. I hit a snag at the Vancouver USA Half, but stayed diligent in my plan.
I tell you all this because I am finally ready to write it down and say it out loud. I’ve spent months thinking about this number. It’s been in my heart and in my dreams.
Please know it’s really not about the number. It’s wanting to see the number that reflects what I am truly capable of and that all of my sacrifices were worth it.
Courage Over Confidence
This has been my main mantra this training cycle. I want to have the courage to push myself instead of relying on the confidence built from my training.
Before I tell you my BIG SCARY goal, I want to also tell you that it’s not about the number. This goal is about the journey. I don’t know what will happen on race day or if this is even possible, but right now it seems to be slightly within reach. I won’t die if I don’t hit my time goal, but I want to be courageous and work as close to it as possible because I know that I’m capable of it and deserve to be rewarded for my hard work.
This entire year I have kept it a secret in my heart, only telling my husband. I haven’t told any friends and have been mum with my beloved mother and sister. Sometimes I keep things to myself because I feel better not opening myself to the possibility of negative talk from myself or from others.
Here it is: I want to run the Chicago Marathon in 5 hours and 20 minutes! (12:13 average)
Keep in mind this would require me to shave off over 30 minutes from my current PR. Don’t get me wrong this won’t be easy and I may die, but right now this is my A GOAL.
At the very beginning of the year, my magic number was sub 5 hours, but right now that doesn’t seem attainable. This number has motivated me to push harder, go farther and work longer for the entire year.
Making It Happen
I’ve put in the strength training and I’ve done the speedwork. I’ve raced more than ever to ease my race day anxiety. I’ve practiced my fueling and improved my nutrition.
I feel like I’ve done everything I can to prepare myself for this goal. No matter what the outcome is on race day, I just want to have the courage to pursue my goal.
I will choose grit every mile. The grit to continue and push my way through it. To see beyond it and keep going.
Have you ever set a crazy goal like this for yourself?
What is your go to mantra when you want to push yourself?
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