Hi everyone! Over the next couple weeks I will be sharing my thoughts on self love, body image, embracing weakness, comparing your progress with others and so much more. I think it’s so important to be transparent in our feelings regarding these topics and speak the truth.
I don’t like conformity or negative self talk. My hope with this series is to start the conversation, implant the spark that everything is truly possible, and encourage self love.
If you have been reading my blog for a while then you probably remember my post about ditching the scale and my goal to love myself more for 2016. I will admit that this has been challenging. My body weight has fluctuated and loving myself through that has been difficult for me.
It seems like no matter what I do I am constantly trying to push myself in new ways while still being cautious of my lazy thyroid. I don’t really enjoy talking about my hypothyroidism. However, the reality is that it plays a huge role in my overall fitness, wellness and marathon training approach. I have to adjust everything to account for potential flare ups, set backs and the like.
A few weeks ago, I was asked by the folks over at Beets BLU to try out their Body Composition Scale and I will admit I was nervous. I don’t like scales because I don’t think they don’t show the full picture. A scale can’t tell you how amazing you are, judge how hard you’re working or measure your overall fitness level.
The thing that did appeal to me was the body composition element. Sometimes my clothes fit differently and I don’t think I’m losing/gaining weight, but I can’t tell what is going on. It’s also not uncommon for my body to retain pounds of water when my thyroid is being stressed.
I like the fact that I am able to look at the percentage of fat, muscle mass percentage, water levels and lean body tissue with this scale.
Don’t get me wrong, I can see how this might spur some unhealthy self talk or body shaming, but I’m a gal how loves numbers. I like to see information so I can at least be aware of it and have a fuller picture.
I’ve been trying a lot of new things this marathon training cycle. I’ve been increasing body weight training, lifting heavier and have drastically increased my weekly mileage. Within my weekly mileage I’ve also increased the number of speed and hill workouts per week.
I also worked up the confidence to run *16* miles in the blazing heat in my sports bra.
I’m not looking to the scale for validation or self worth, but more from a scientific approach. What can I learn from the numbers that will help me feel better or perform better? I never want to go back to the girl I was when I counted calories and weighed myself daily.
Calorie Restriction vs. Calorie Knowledge
Our society tells women that simple calorie restriction will fix all of their problems. We all know that while that might work for some women some of the time, it’s not a lifestyle change. Diets based solely around the number of calories are gross.
Watching your portions based on your activity output is a completely different thing in my mind from calorie restriction. I think it’s important to be aware of what you are eating, but you can’t let the fear of weight gain dictate your life. That is completely exhausting and draining in every sense.
To me calorie restriction is counting, obsessing and focusing on a model that isn’t going to leave you feeling happy. In fact in my experience, you are usually less content and probably hungry. Calorie counting down to the number and knowing what you are putting in your mouth are different, but determining the difference is a whole process.
If we truly want to love ourselves while striving to be the best version of ourselves, we have to work to find balance. Balance between being educated and not obsessed. Balance between embracing ourselves where we are and still striving to be better.
Be sure to come back next week for the next edition of Love Your Body!
How do you stay balanced?